You Can’t Spell Challenge without Change

I have deep amount of optimism in 2018. I expect it to be fantastic. But I am definitely, 100%, not shaking. I think that I have been waiting for the winds to blow things into place, but not doing enough of the playmaking. So, to give myself accountability, I want to make clear, semi-arbitrary goals to achieve by June 2018. I want to update weekly … Continue reading You Can’t Spell Challenge without Change

D for Deferred…

Writing with some distance, I can accurately convey my feelings about my deferral from Stanford without the sting of passion clouding my judgment. Initially, disappointment was my main fixture. I hoped against all odds that I could achieve the impossible. In fairness, I was only half-heartedly expecting good news- fear dominated most of my anticipation. But truly, wishing to be accepted to my top choice … Continue reading D for Deferred…

T-6

Gah. My decision is on its way, hurtling towards me ever so quickly and I cannot stop it. I reside in this twilight zone in which my life streaks in infinite directions, and opening that admissions portal is my gateway into one. I crouch behind a veil of uncertainty and anxious energy as I contemplate the meaning of all this. I swallow my pride, whole … Continue reading T-6

Less than 24 hours before my decision is released…

Exactly 20 hours and 20 minutes before my decision is announced….I am so nervous I could do a backflip. My mind jettisons back and forth between acceptance and rejection scenarios. I am hoping for the best, preparing for the worst, and expecting things to go as planned (in the grand scheme of things of course) 😁 But I can’t…stop….obsessing….. I so badly want to be … Continue reading Less than 24 hours before my decision is released…

Letter to My Post-Decision Self

Hey Delphine, A few days ago, you were gearing up for your first big decision: your dream school decision. You were anxious, nervous, scared, and trying to rationalize a potential rejection to your old sensitive soul. So I am writing you this letter to read after you get notice. First of all, regardless of the decision, CONGRATULATIONS! You have worked so hard and grown so much to … Continue reading Letter to My Post-Decision Self

breaking up with your dream school in order to save your soul: a novel

(Alternate Title: Dream School Delusion) I have fallen in too deep. As I thought wistfully about my impending early decision at Stanford, I caught myself feeling flutters of joy, the same you get when falling in love with someone new for the first time. Then, while mindlessly thinking of a potential (and very possible/probable?) rejection, I just endured shudders….shudders that persisted despite imagining myself at … Continue reading breaking up with your dream school in order to save your soul: a novel

Colleges I Want to Go To VS. Colleges I Think I Should Go To

University of Florida. Eckerd College. University of North Carolina- Chapel Hill. University of North Texas at Denton. UT Arlington. For one reason or another, these schools have captured my heart, fancy, and imagination. I can’t help wonder myself there, whether it be for their vivacious student bodies, paradisiac campuses, cute college towns, nearby urban centers, or all of the above. You know how we describe … Continue reading Colleges I Want to Go To VS. Colleges I Think I Should Go To

“Your Prices Way Too High, You Need to CUT IT”: A Rant about College App FEES

Real talk. WHY ARE COLLEGE APPLICATION FEES SO DAMN HIGH?! You would think that giving the gift of education and knowledge to the youth and our nation’s future would be enough for colleges and universities. Now, before I get blasted for “Colleges need sources of funding” and “Admissions Officers need to get paid” and “Processing applications, believe it or not is expensive”… Are you telling … Continue reading “Your Prices Way Too High, You Need to CUT IT”: A Rant about College App FEES

Being Black is Not a Political Statement

The following post is not related to college admissions- skip this if you don’t want to read an amateur think piece on the state of racial identity as seen by a first-generation American black woman (still a teenager, but still). Proceed at your own risk. If you are easily offended by black awareness, discussion of social justice, and other related issues, skip ahead. (Or read … Continue reading Being Black is Not a Political Statement

The Conundrum of College Lists

College Lists. They’re like grocery lists, except way more stressful, and you can’t go back to the store if you forget something. Hella high stakes. College Lists are ridiculously hard to come by, for several reasons. You have to consider a myriad of factors, especially when applying to schools with low acceptance rates. It’s a careful tightrope walk between Strategy, Happiness, Money and Personal Health. … Continue reading The Conundrum of College Lists